HADLEY

I think the last few days could be summed up as "Emotional Roller coaster". I think all of us have felt every emotion there is to feel, one minute we are so happy and positive that everything is going to be ok and the next we are so scared and lost that we don't know what to do or say. Hadley is making progress in some areas and staying the same in some.
We all went down to the hospital last night to be with Randy and Sheila. They had gotten the MRI results and they weren't the best news. The results show that he still has spots on his brain that have not healed yet. The doctor has been very straight forward with us through this whole process (which has its good and its bad at times) he was explaining that now we will just have to wait things out and see if Hadley can wake up but there is also a possibility that he may not. I don't even know how to explain this feeling of being so helpless and so scared not knowing what the next thing to happen is. Mike and I got to the hospital and went to see Hadley. When we first got there Hadley wasn't doing much at all just resting. We had decided to go for a while and come back.  Mike made it about an hour and then decided to go back up. I think he was gone for maybe 15 minutes and then called to tell us to come up to the room Hadley's eyes were open!! We rushed up to the room and sure enough his eyes were open, all I could do is cry,  I had gone from being so disappointed to having so much lifted off my chest I couldn't control the tears. We all gathered around his bed and talked to him and held his hand. About that time John and Heather made it to the hospital. John came in and knelt down by Hadley's bed to help Hadley see him better.  I don't even know what John said to Hadley but Hadley smiled at John it wasn't a big smile but it was definitely a smile!! I think at that point the entire room could breathe a little easier, we all were so relieved. Right after that it was time for shift change so of course they made us leave for a few hours. We all went back to the camper and just laughed and joked and told stories about Hadley. We all know deep down that this is going to be one of the biggest challenges of our life's and I think after going through this we know as a family that we need each other and that together we can and we will get through this. The challenges are going to be tough for us but they will be tougher for Hadley and we can do it! I want my family to know that I love each and every one of them and we have each other to get through this with.

Today they are going to try to wake Hadley up more! They say that sometimes if you give a patient Ritalin that has a brain injury that it will help get the hormones in the brain going and can help wake them up. They have also talked about maybe moving him to a different floor which will help him more with therapy. All the signs show that Hadley is trying to wake up, he squeezes our hands and trys to find us with his eyes. The hard part about a brain injury is that they can't just tell us that in 3 days he is going to wake up and then have a week of therapy, and go home and be the same kid he was before the accident. No one knows exactly how the brain works. Hadley just needs time and time is what we will give him.

Of course we are hoping for a miracle in all of this, we have seen a few already. Our miracle might not come as soon as we want it to, or just what we want it to be but we just need the faith to get through this to find when and what our miracle is.